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it was always worth it

by claire rousay

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pietrominea If I could give two hearts (likes) to this, I definitely would. I really love this piece. It leads me through a rich realm of between-people. Favorite track: it was always worth it.
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K Hall I missed the point of this piece the first time I listened to it…tonight was the exact opposite as I heard my own story told back to me. All relationships are complicated and almost all of them are worth decide. Favorite track: it was always worth it.
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wc_helmets A gorgeous, fragile tale. Lovely work.
Jeremy P. Bushnell
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Jeremy P. Bushnell claire rousay, the bad girl of emo-ambient, drops an emotionally gutting track for an emotionally gutting time. let the healing begin
Anthony Childs
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Anthony Childs Wow. Should be required listening for anyone going through a breakup. In attempts to lessen the pain the knife cuts relentlessly.
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claire rousay is a person who performs and records. She currently lives in San Antonio, Texas. Her performances and recordings explore human relationships and self perception.

Artist notes:

I've recently been exclusively working with field recordings and text to voice programs. This piece was a weird detour for me. The inclusion of synthesizer sounds completely caught me off guard. I guess I was missing harmony. D major, as usual.

“it was always worth it” documents a romantic parting of ways. The voice to text is sourced from various love letters over the last six years. Domestic “field recordings” from the last week of the relationship fade in and out while synthesisers hold everything together. The synthesiser sounds are a detour from my recent work. I only recently started to incorporate harmonic elements into my music and this felt like a good chance to try and dive deeper into that world. Harmony is emotional right? I don’t know. Other thoughts/phrases that come to mind when I think of this 20 minutes of sound include “emo ambient”, “breakup album”, “uncomfortably revealing”, etc.

I love the domestic sounds, sounds where the microphone is involved in the environment, sounds where things change, sounds where things stay the same. Water recording sounds are overdone and I don't mind. I love the sound of voices, especially the voices of my loved ones. Those are the sounds I listen to.

Deep Listening: A Composer's Sound Practice by Pauline Oliveros is what anyone should read.

Written and recorded by claire rousay
Violin by Alex Cunningham
“Innocent” written and performed by Our Lady Peace
Mastered by andrew weathers
Thanks to Mari, Sabney, and everyone I've shed a tear with


released October 14, 2020


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claire rousay is based in Los Angeles, CA. Her music zeroes in on personal emotions and the minutiae of everyday life

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